I can relate to the envy/sexual feelings toward that kind of person 18-22 (or 23). I want to be that person, I want that person to like me. Frankly I want to be popular, unfortunately I have a tendency to equate friendship with sex.
Glad you found us, I know this board has been a great help to me. Keep writing
"Being with people that understand you...Priceless"
"and i don't want the world to see me, cause i don't think that they'd understand"
"You don't know what love is...you just do as your told"
"My life has changed. What you take as a simple thing, is not so simple for me anymore"