I'm Frank, and I just found this forum today. Let me introduce myself; I'm 37, live in the Netherlands, and am currently recovering from a depression.
English isn't my native language, so I hope you will forgive me if I make some spelling-mistakes. If someting in my postings isn't clear, feel free to ask.
I've been struggling with the psychological consequences of abuse I suffered when I was in my teens. The fact that the one who abused me was my sister makes things even worse, since it is hard to make people understand why it happened. When I tell someone about it, they won't even believe me; for them, it's impossible for a man to be sexually abused by a woman. Some think that I was the abuser, and others just laugh and can't understand why I am making such a big deal out of it.
Well, it IS hard to explain it all, since I was stronger than my sister and could have easily prevented the abuse, but she used blackmail-tactics to 'control' me, and she knew that, when I would dare tell anyone, she was the one who was going to be believed.
She had complete control over me, and I didn't know how I could 'escape' her.
She abused me for 7 years almost every day, and made me do things that were very humiliating and degrading. She also involved some of her friends, which made it even worse.
It's hard to find a place where I can talk about it, because most 'abuse-forums' are for the benefit of women abused by men, and some (like this one) for men abused by men, but I don't know of one for men abused by women. If someone here knows of such a forum or site, please tell me. In the meantime, I hope I can tell my story here?
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