One other thing ... all of us didn't really have a choice but to survive. I know that I myself comtemplated and attempted suicide and plenty of others have too.

But, thankfully, I have found a way to keep chugging along ... Why? BECAUSE I HAD NO CHOICE! I had to survive, I still have to survive, and tomorrow, I will still need to survive! Even more so now that I have a wife and son (and one on the way)!

Survival for us is not a matter of choice...it's something we have had to learn to do.