Sorry about the delay in responses. I haven't been on the forum since Thanksgiving. I crashed and burned shortly after that. Everything I had been working on to fix in my past caught up to me and I bit off more that I could deal with. PTSD work isn't easy and will take you down if you don't watch for the red flags along the way. I ended up in the hospital for a week. Since all of this has happened, I really don't care what people think regarding my sexuality. I met a couple of people in the hospital that introduced a different way of thinking to me. They helped me without them knowing that I can just let it be. People know me as being straight. I still have that question in my mind but I have learned that whatever happens, happens so don't sweat it.