Michael

I am going to let it go. I am sorry. I am in constant darkness, always angry and full of hatred. I can never let go of the hate and anger.

I have destroyed the friends that i had. I turned everyone i knew against me. I see never ending darkness. I wish I was not like this........... I never wanted to start the drugs, i just want to let it run to its logical conclusion - end the pain.

I am sorry that i come across this way. I have tried, really tried to feel humanity within myself but it gets lost in the hatred.

I have no intention of stopping the virus. I do not care for myself. I died back in the past and died again all what is left is an empty shell with no feelings............................................. i feel as if i am a burden on society having to take the drugs that cost a lot of money. i feel guilty for it. i always feel guilty. I dont know what to do anymore....................

please do not worry.......... i will be around for a long time

duncan

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you dont see me. i am not really here. Its my fault.. all of it. I am to blame and no one else.