i've heard depression hurts.
if the pain i'm feeling is depression, then i don't know how anybody deals with it.
i feel like i've WAY overextended myself on my friends - what few i have i value too much to keep dumping on but i don't know where else to turn.
i'm 52, not 6. i may feel like 6 but the fact is i am NOT a child. i should be able to deal with this. but when i look at my life, at the way i feel - i FEEL like i'm 6. i'm scared and alone.
but i'm not alone. not really. there are people here. but there were people there then too - and that didn't help either.
i feel like i'm making no sense. just rambling on and on.
i've never felt so lost.

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the story
    https://1in6.org/men/bristlecone/mark-krueger/

Kirkridge - October 2008
Alta - September 2012
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