ALWAYS CAUTIOUS OF ANY APPROACH

Hey you guys, yeh you, the ones running and laughing with each other
acting as if trusting was like breathing, don’t worry I won’t intrude

Hey you guys, the ones talking and arguing as if you have no fear of rejection
bantering with pleasure not afraid of going too far, don’t worry I won’t interfere

Hey you over there, you seem to touch each other without fear of being hurt.
You don’t seem to fear at all. Don’t worry I’m just passing by.

I approached with a glimmer of hope that I would be able to talk with you
Your confidence scares me off. I had better not intrude

We share some common thread but your way above me
you have poise, I’m a fraud. I couldn’t intrude if I wanted to.

Your smile and comforting arm around my shoulders brings up conflict
if I get confident in your presence you might tire of me and push me away

Fear is like an overprotective membrane that surrounds us like a bubble
when it’s developing it gains texture from its environment
with love and support it is soft and supple,
easily and accurately determining the intention of its surroundings.
when caused to defend, it becomes rigid, dark and entrapping
always cautious of any approach.

After a lot of years I see more accurately, the door where fear entered in.
my eyes are not yet strong enough to see it clearly
but I know it’s there and I am pretty sure that when I can reach it
it will crumble and soften the fear
Then I can apply the love balm that has been available all along
healing the membrane rendering it clear.

I’ll see you on a level where we hug and discuss
all the pleasure in our lives, with no fear or distrust.