I saw that I had been literally stuck without a sexuality of my own in the long time of being molested. That I had created a shell around myself of images and words that always kept me abused and vulnerable and ashamed. I was afraid of hidden things inside myself because of the experiences which I couldn't explain. They made me terribly unsure of my sexuality. When I was asked if I was gay or straight, there was always this difficult response, something like I think I am straight,
This says a lot Danny. I was abused when I was 11 before, I knew what sex was. Someone used the words, "I was imprinted", like there was nothing there before... then after... that's all there was, for a LONG time. I've felt much of what you felt.
Good luck on your Journey in recovery.