When will I stop seeing happy well adjusted kids/teens on TV and in real life and wonder to myself why I couldn't have that kind of childhood. Maybe I should get rid of my DVR, because all I do with it is pause those scenes and dwell on it.

Its kind of like that 3 doors down song where the chorus is

"If I could be like that, I would give anything
Just to live one day, in those shoes. If I could be like that,
what would I do, what would I do"

Jason

(sorry, I know this is just a vent or more accurately me feeling sorry for myself, just had to get this out though).

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"Being with people that understand you...Priceless"

"and i don't want the world to see me, cause i don't think that they'd understand"

"You don't know what love is...you just do as your told"

"My life has changed. What you take as a simple thing, is not so simple for me anymore"