I am really struggling. I still do self-destructive things - only in my mind. I have not cut myself or acted out in well over 200+ days...but I still think about it. When I get scared or frustrated, or angry I still think about it! It brings me no peace but I still think about it!! My soul is so tortured about what I have done to myself - but my mind continues to reach for the poison!!!
All I want to do is to be alone - maybe that way I would not be such a treat to myself.
I bid you Peace.
The time is always NOW. Breath In. Breath Out. Move On.