Hey, Luke.

I had almost a similar experience several years ago.

I had just disclosed to my family - I went in for a physical and was very triggered by the prostate exam. At one point, he said, "Ok, Dan, breathe" I was so tense.

Here's the funny part, when I was in my early 20's, I had a bad prostate infection. I had many many many prostate exams in that time, and although unpleasant (the infection made it very uncomfortable), I was not triggered... then, at the age of 40, I was back in the basement again - full of shame, guilt... I felt so dirty and "bad".

It has gotten better - the last time was no big deal at all... so as Cbfull said, you are experiencing something very normal considering your past.

Dan

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