I don't know how to unravel the symptoms of the abuse, Myoclonic Dystonia, and , potentially Asperger's Syndrome. They all seem so intertwined at this point. I don't think they can be unraveled and have to be dealt with 'on the whole' so to speak.
I am much better communicating here or via email then I am verbally. And to sit in a room with you - well you would swear you were in the room alone. Talking to you - or just sitting still with out jerking or something like that would be very hard for me. Knowing you wanted to communicate with me would make me very uncomfortable. And forget about eye contact - I find it very intimidating. But when I do talk I have been accused of being very "Alan Greenspan'ish".
I find - but am getting better - that real emotional intimacy, thou I love my wife and children very much - is so damned difficult.
I bid you Peace.
The time is always NOW. Breath In. Breath Out. Move On.