I'm glad that I've had the chance to speak with you before and that, for the moment, we're only miles away.
I think it is great that you had the courage to share what you did. I could feel tears welling up as I read your post. I can relate to the fear and the shut down feelings. You touched my soul and you, along with everyone else here, share a part of my soul. It all seems kind of like a dream, doesn't it? And waking up is hard to do.
I hope that you find tons of support here. I'm in your corner, as many others are.
John, The Music Man.