Hi vance and welcome. You've come to the right place to find support from everyone. I have found it to be very helpful.
I can relate to how negatively "something bad" can impact your life. We've probably all developed bad habits because of what hasbeen done to us. Probably most of us suffer from anxiety. I know that I definitely do.
the best thing to do is to keep talking about your feelings. That is what helps the anxiety to subside, especially when there are so many of us who understand how you feel.
I wish you the best.
John, The Music Man