Everyone,
I had a back operation 3 weeks ago tomarrow and had been off work with back pain waiting for the operation for over a week. My back has always been screwed up since the abuse, I was forced..alot..into a position where I was setting down with my head forced between my knees and held like that for long times! Now with this consent pain in my back...I'm having flashbacks and bad dreams about this form of aduse and can't stand it much longer!!! I take meds for the pain but it is still there! When the meds ware off I start to flash...will most likely have to stay home for more that a month longer! How can I stop the flashbacks and dreams? It seens that as long as my back will hurt I'm doomed to this crap?

Eddie