Honest to God, I think this is the longest paragraph I've ever read! And there is so much in there....
I was so glad to read your most recent post and to learn that things are looking more positive for you.
Actually, when I skim back over your long letter to Andy I am left with the distinct impression that all you need to know is right there in your own words! Funny how the Universe tells us what we need to be knowing, isn't it?
Your heart sounds so much lighter, now, my friend. You are healing!