Like others have said, you're among friends here and this is a safe place. Calling what happened to you by its proper name is scary as hell, but I think you'll find it's a necessary part of healing from it. And you WILL heal from it! It takes time, effort and support, but given these, it will happen.
Your perp can't isolate you any more. You're here, plus you're among friends who truly understand what happened and what it means deep down. He can't hurt you. Stay connected with others in whatever way brings healing (either here or elsewhere,) but don't play into his hands and feel alone. That's one of a great many things YOU control now.
I know what a Pandora's Box this is for you. People like us get through one issue, get it under control more or less, then it's time to deal with the next one. It seems endless sometimes. But naming what happened to you is part of confronting it, which has to happen before you can overcome it and put it behind you.
Keep up the fight, even when it's painful. You're not going crazy; it's times like these when I personally believe your brain is being rewired for the better.
If you have to rebuild yourself from the ground up, you get to do it the right way this time. And YOU'RE the builder.