sorry to hear about the panic attacks and bad dreams. those increased for me when i first started dealing with all the memories connected to the abuse. i am glad to say that as i dealt with them, the scary symptoms decreased in frequency and severity. it may mean that you need to avoid the distractions for a while and face it head on. i found MS a good substitute for some of my distraction tactics. so don't quit - keep on pushing through. it may get a bit worse for a while - but will eventually get better.
We are often troubled, but not crushed;
sometimes in doubt, but never in despair;
there are many enemies, but we are never without a friend;
and though badly hurt at times, we are not destroyed.
- Paul, II Cor 4:8-9