It all ties to hypervigilance. Which is a defense mechanism where you scan for potential threats. Analyzing every small detail of every persons behavior, constantly scanning left to right, every person, every car, every corner, to make sure that no one is there to hurt you.
did not know i had this label, but it sounds exactly like me.
hypervigilance actually sounds like a good thing,
but it has given me extreme anxiety.
there is simply no way to prepare for and prevent against all possible problems and potential perils.
the future is full of hidden hazards, strange dangers, unseen obstacles, death threats, ill omens, necessary risks, and malevolent menaces.
there are no assurances or guarantees.
learning to live with this truth has proven most difficult for me.
i am reminded of a dr.seuss story...
i had trouble getting to solla sollew!