If I could answer this question and just be able to think of myself I would still answer no. My grandfather was a deplorable person, so this pill would have stopped occasional sexual abuse but the daily beatings of a drunkard would still remain, the neglect from my parents would have continued, maybe I wouldnít have left home @15, and yes 39 years later I would never have to relive the nightmare in my head. But what about the other people in my life; my wife, my children? I doubt very seriously I would have met my wife and in which case my sons would never have been born. Thatís the problem for me, if all I endured were the beatings I couldnít be who I was to be there to meet my wife, to be sitting here typing this today. I grew up not remembering any of it; the rapes the beatings, my fatherís betrayal; everything. I grew up being told I was just a fucked up piece of shit, I believed this until I met my wife and she gave me an idea that maybe I was ok after all and that everyone else was wrong. Over the years I was able to gain confidence in myself and I actually even began to like myself a bit. I realized yes I was ďnot like everybody elseĒ but I was ok with me I had accepted the fact that I was very different from everyone else in a lot of ways. I turned my back on most of societies values because I had to figure out on my own ( read with the wifeís help of course) what I cared about; its wasnít money or a job or anything like that; just to be left alone to live and do what I wanted to do and tell everyone to go fuck themselves. Thatís my reality; I spent 39 years trying to figure myself out and finally have, how could I turn my back on myself, how could I be like the rest of humanity and just throw up my hands on myself? Itís been over a year since my "abreaction"; thanks Puffer for the 12 dollar word; and finally Iím finding some peace, not perfect but I realize that the me of 2 years ago although imperfect was pretty good, and as I explore myself more and more I find I like myself more and more. Yes I did sacrifice a lot to be here today in the condition Iím in; Iíve hurt a lot of people and for that Iím truly sorry and hope theyíll forgive me, but Iíve actually for the first time in my life have a plan a goal that is only mine and without the shit Iíve gone through there is no way Iíd be here today.
"it has never yet been discovered how to make man unknow his knowledge, or unthink his thoughts"