Thanks guys, I just feel like im on the verge of losing my s*** again. I had it all figured out, I was rocking this recovery thing out but now I'm just as confused as I was a year ago. I told my wife about my issues with SSA, she in turn told me she also has a SSA. So I was like... Cool... now fast forward a year, now she tells me she's with another man and she did it as a way to release me so I can find out who I am..... So as it turns out, after dating a few men I dont think im even gay. I dont like being touched by men. Do I sexualize them yes... Am I capable of being sexual with men yes. but I cannot be affectionate towards a Man.... Soooooo im CONFUSED and I lost my best friend in the mix of all this. Maybe this is too much info for this thread but im just tossing it out there. And I feel like im losing my mind. I can't even put a coherent thought down, I'm just going to end this rambling for now..
"Those are not your sins" A wise man