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#453150 - 11/10/13 06:43 PM Where have you been?
bey Offline

Registered: 01/28/10
Posts: 356
Loc: canada
Jamie was the first one to ask

Shirts off on the bed
He paused
Traced the little dime sized scars up my arms
And down my back
Ran his hand along the lines that crisscross my stomach
Like train tracks
Where surgeons left me near empty
He whispered "where have you been, Benny?"

And I
Sat stunned

It's ok
He said
It's ok
And put his forehead against mine
His hand pushed against the worst of it
It's ok Benny

Far from the first one to notice
But the first to ask
A question I couldn't answer

Where have you been, Benny?
I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me.

#453381 - 11/12/13 03:17 PM Re: Where have you been? [Re: bey]
Jacob S Offline

Registered: 01/01/13
Posts: 618
Loc: where the shadows lie
I can tell this is powerful because I can't bear to think about it for too long. Take that as a compliment.

#453391 - 11/12/13 04:22 PM Re: Where have you been? [Re: bey]
Shyshark Offline

Registered: 10/30/12
Posts: 599
Loc: Canada
I would have no problem looking at and touching your scars ...
although I almost certainly would be crying at the time.

It would not be because of what I see ...
But because of what I cannot see ...

I readily admit that I would be afraid to ask ...
until you gave me permission to do so ...
with or without knowing it.

Jaime is a courageous person who risked being rebuffed,
told to fuck off and mind his own business ...
but so caring that he was willing to take the chance.

It didn't matter to him where you have been Benny ...
only where you are.

He found you.

((( Jaime )))

((( bey )))
Experience is a brutal teacher.

#453415 - 11/12/13 06:04 PM Re: Where have you been? [Re: bey]
don64 Offline

Registered: 10/09/13
Posts: 1078
Loc: St. Croix, USVI
Hi bey,

I am sending so much softness, gentleness, kindness, and love your way. Don
Divine Law is not judgment or denial of self truths. Divine Law is honoring harmony that comes from a peaceful mind, an open heart, a true tongue, a light step, a forgiving nature, and a love of all living creatures. Jamie Sams & David Carson, Medicine Cards


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