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#454063 - 11/16/13 09:29 PM Re: My Dog Died Last Night [Re: InsideTheWall]
pufferfish Offline
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Registered: 02/26/08
Posts: 6843
Loc: USA
My dog just died.

Yes, mine too.

Originally Posted By: InsideTheWall
I took her right off the street in a rough part of town and made her my own. I don't know what killed her but I kind of suspect it was cancer. She was nine and she's being cremated.
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I loved her but I wasn't worthy of her. There will always be a part of me that fucking hates myself for what I did to a good dog. It will haunt me the rest of my life.


My dog just died.

I had to go out earlier in the evening and he wanted me to take him so badly. I couldn't. When I returned, there he was sprawled right where he would have stood asking me to take him.

Now he's gone. I needed him. He needed me. I'm so sad.

Now I'm asking all the questions of grief. Is there something I could have/should have done? He was sick yesterday and I didn't do anything. I'm so selfish. Why didn't I do something for him yesterday?
He was a really good dog. A best-friend type of dog. Now I'm all alone. An old man who just lost his dog.

I'm so sad.

He was a road dog. A foundling dog. He was found out on the road in another county. A friend cleaned him up and took him to the vet and brought him to us. He was teaching me how to be loving. Now he's gone.

I needed him.

Puffer




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#454074 - 11/16/13 10:04 PM Re: My Dog Died Last Night [Re: InsideTheWall]
traveler Offline
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Registered: 02/07/06
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Loc: somewhere in Africa
((((((((((PUFFER))))))))))
i am so, so sorry.
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What I left behind: a part of me. Chicago


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#454095 - 11/17/13 12:23 AM Re: My Dog Died Last Night [Re: InsideTheWall]
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Registered: 10/09/11
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oh Puffer that is so sad, I'm sorry for your loss.
But I'm happy knowing how much you loved your dog, he has had good life!
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#454114 - 11/17/13 09:32 AM Re: My Dog Died Last Night [Re: InsideTheWall]
InsideTheWall Offline


Registered: 01/10/09
Posts: 280
And the tears are back. All I can say to you what people said to me. Nothing can make any difference today. Nothing. You're missing a part of you that you mentally check on more often than your wallet, and you're about to start realizing how much you do it. You'll go through alot of firsts without your dog. First time getting gas, first time eating, first time vacuuming, etc. Over time, the firsts start getting less frequent and you stop but the first day is definitely the worst.


Edited by InsideTheWall (11/17/13 09:35 AM)

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#454125 - 11/17/13 11:20 AM Re: My Dog Died Last Night [Re: pufferfish]
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Registered: 10/25/10
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My heart is just broken for you, Puffer. I never met you or your dog. But here I am, in the middle Washington DC, sitting at a Starbucks, and the tears welling up are for you both.
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#454236 - 11/18/13 09:19 AM Re: My Dog Died Last Night [Re: Chase Eric]
pufferfish Offline
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Registered: 02/26/08
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Loc: USA
Thanks guys for your comforting words.

I feel much better this morning but I miss Choochoo.

I awoke this morning wondering if he was poisoned. I know I should just forget about it. His symptoms involved digestive system and the had sudden onset (2-3 days). Maybe he ate a chicken bone I didn't see.

This means I have progressed to the next stage of grief: Trying to figure it all out and understand what happened.

Puffer

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#454347 - 11/18/13 07:48 PM Re: My Dog Died Last Night [Re: InsideTheWall]
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Registered: 01/10/09
Posts: 280
Tonight is the two week anniversary of Lucy's death. I still miss her alot, but its getting easier. Getting that job when I did still feels shitty. I wanted her at my side at my moment of triumph, and she dies right before it happens.

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#454466 - 11/19/13 05:19 PM Re: My Dog Died Last Night [Re: InsideTheWall]
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Registered: 07/13/12
Posts: 901
Loc: Florida
Puffer, I don't have words. As with InsideTheWall, your post was hard for me to read. Since I'm only three months out from my loss I'm right there with you both.

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