In a movie or TV show, or whatever was being noisy in my background, I heard a T suggesting to a young guy that he get busy designing his visions of his life going forward...to create a list of attributes and features of sorts.
Then I read Eric's angle above, and think THAT'S IT!!! Eric has the right idea!
Suddenly, I realized that I did in fact write those lists 40 years ago -- 30 and 20 years ago...that I "got the life" of my design (not God's design). My list was fully checked-off except for the child-count. I wanted 4 kids, as I had met them all in my dreams.
Since hearing that media T suggest the list to the kid, I can't bring myself to create one item to one more list.
But now to the thread's intent:
Being a survivor to me means knowing just how evil this world truly is.
My fault? How's this my fault? [Dean Vernon Wormer, 1978]