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#446051 - 08/31/13 12:51 PM Inception * TRIGGERS *
risingagain Offline
Member
MaleSurvivor

Registered: 11/09/10
Posts: 597
Loc: Vancouver, BC, Canada
Terror
lurks
inside my heart
denial
my
defense
My sister
leaves her children
to be babysit
by grandpa and grandma
They are my parents
that serially raped me
when I was a child
Terror
lurks
inside my heart
denial
my defense

White middle class suburb
Wine glasses clinking
Engineers clamber into SUVs after breakfast
Off to work
Good jobs
Nice houses
There's nothing wrong here
Deviants, pedophiles, and terrorists
They live elsewhere
Don't they?
Terror
lurks
inside my heart
denial
my defense

I remember what you did to me
I stare at my father
I remember
myself
tied and bloodied on the basement floor
I've been living a dream
escaping my body
where terror lives
No no, he says, covering a faint smile with his hand,
You must be mistaken.
Terror
lurks
inside my heart
denial
my defense

Children say, "Won't you listen?"
We are destroying their birthright
Oil escapes from underground chambers
And into pristine watersheds
Deadly radiation erupts from coastal power plants
And into our Mother, the ocean
Nearly every glacier is melting
Children are dying of thyroid cancer
It's not a threat, we're told
no amber alert.
Terror
lurks
inside my heart
denial
my defense

What is the real world
and what is the dream?
Climate change,
Species extinction,
Bloodied blue children,
Or iPhone 7
Playstation warfare
Some tittie video that went viral
In my own mind
Questions
Am I insane
for remembering
the violence in my own
perfect
childhood?
Terror
lurks
inside my heart
denial
my defense

Another child raped
Another animal suffocates
Another toxic release
Another glacier disappears
In a far off place
Not in this country
Not in this neighbourhood
No violence in this heart
But my dream world is collapsing
Terror
lurks
inside my heart
denial
my defense

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#446075 - 08/31/13 07:02 PM Re: Inception * TRIGGERS * [Re: risingagain]
Shyshark Offline


Registered: 10/30/12
Posts: 414
Loc: Canada
darkness lives in your denial
your defense lies in the light
I wish that I could hold you
in the comfort safety of my arms
and tell you
it will be alright
_________________________
Experience is a brutal teacher.

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#446097 - 08/31/13 11:09 PM Re: Inception * TRIGGERS * [Re: risingagain]
kcinohio Offline
Member
MaleSurvivor

Registered: 06/06/12
Posts: 338
Loc: Ohio
risingagain, this one is particularly good - well done.

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#446189 - 09/02/13 02:35 AM Re: Inception * TRIGGERS * [Re: risingagain]
risingagain Offline
Member
MaleSurvivor

Registered: 11/09/10
Posts: 597
Loc: Vancouver, BC, Canada
Shyshark, you're right. I just haven't seen it, the true defense is in the light. Thanks for reminding me!

Thanks kcinohio, I don't know, I feel so challenged by my own denial and those around me. It's all being brought up as I confront my family about leaving my nieces with my parents.

Thanks for your support guys.

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#446238 - 09/02/13 04:35 PM Re: Inception * TRIGGERS * [Re: risingagain]
bluesky Offline
Member
MaleSurvivor

Registered: 08/04/13
Posts: 133
Dreaming of to day forever and ever

Lets walk you and me
in the light there is no night
the sky is blue sun shines

Roses bloom grasses grow
sweat smells of cool breeze put us at ease

Death hate pain and shame
never stand a chance
Only love compassion
giving and living

One brother to another
we tell our dreams
Dreaming of to day forever and ever.

Walking in the light
we always shine its sublime
igniting the soul to unfold
its untold potential

There is no darkness here
when compassion shines

IT is our right to win
live dance and prance
yours mine and every girl and boy
full of joy.

You have courage and I applaud you for trying to protect the innocent. We need to stand together to stop the cycle of hate and destruction.
Thank you man.
(((((risingagain)))))
_________________________
Where the fear has gone there will be nothing.
Only I will remain."
Frank Herbert

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#446247 - 09/02/13 06:48 PM Re: Inception * TRIGGERS * [Re: risingagain]
risingagain Offline
Member
MaleSurvivor

Registered: 11/09/10
Posts: 597
Loc: Vancouver, BC, Canada
Thank you for your beautiful return poem, Bluesky I'm loving these return poems!

smile

Feeling warm 'n fuzzy!
Mark

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