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#444756 - 08/20/13 02:17 AM Why? I scream
Adam A Gedman Offline


Registered: 08/12/13
Posts: 188
Loc: Canada
Why, I scream
with the rage of a bear
My nightmare began
With your lies to ensnare

I did nothing wrong
In my want to helpful
I was wary of your song
I should've been more careful

The blame isn't mine
Though my choice I bemoan
The damage you caused
Is for you to own

My feelings are numb
My heart torn in two
I would take all my pain
And plunge it through you

You're pure evil I see
In the movie in my head
And given a chance
I would make you dead

I kid you not
This thing I would do
This anger you see
Was all caused by you

The world would better
Without you around
We'd be much better off
With you in the ground

The life that was lost
The night you attacked
Might have been great
And I can't get that back

But I'm still right here
You will never win
I'm learning to love
My child within

He made it this far
He is quite resilient
The mistake that you made
Was that this kid was brilliant

He packed it away
In compartments so tight
He's been waiting so long
Until the time was right

There's many who'll help
They've seen this before
Their experience you see
Has opened the door

Why, I scream
As loud as can be
I don't do this for you
I do this for me


Edited by Adam A Gedman (08/20/13 03:07 PM)
Edit Reason: Typo
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Presence is the key, for all we have is now.
All we ever have is right now.

Formerly Adam A Gedman (AKA - A damAGed man)

But you can call me Kevin

Toronto Mini WoR - May 2014

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#444761 - 08/20/13 03:18 AM Re: Why? I scream [Re: Adam A Gedman]
ghostlights Offline


Registered: 11/22/11
Posts: 26
Loc: Upstate NY
Absolutely man. Well said. The power is yours. The blame is the perp's. I hope that sense of power continues to grow until it infects every particle of your being and evicts every trace of shame, and hopefully that anger too. None of us can change the horror we lived through before but I believe we can own our destinies and our days from here on out. It's a matter of choosing, doing the hard work learning to love ourselves and accepting the same from others. So often just logging on to this site, reading the words of others and corresponding with them I feel the love we have for our brothers here. I hope you sense that too. All good things to you man.

-Dave
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#444803 - 08/20/13 03:30 PM Re: Why? I scream [Re: Adam A Gedman]
Adam A Gedman Offline


Registered: 08/12/13
Posts: 188
Loc: Canada
Thanks Dave

Still working it all out, but this site has been a great help and inspiration.

Although I can find the words, I think the real emotions elude me still. With the exception of anger, he and have been very close for a long time.

The feedback here is my drug of choice, and the responses I've received have really helped me focus on what I think are the right things.

Time will tell.
_________________________
Presence is the key, for all we have is now.
All we ever have is right now.

Formerly Adam A Gedman (AKA - A damAGed man)

But you can call me Kevin

Toronto Mini WoR - May 2014

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