I still create crisis in my life at times. Have a big upheaval and then later abusing myself. I put like wine bottles in. It recreates the shame, secrecy and isolation of being molested. For me that is. Theripist says its a def sign of my being molested. Im still trying to understand what makes me do thus; the feelings before as well as after. I have to get colonoscopies every two years, kind of embarassing. I know my abuse shows up. I don't have memories, but feel something is going on beneath my awareness.
Edited by little big man (06/10/13 02:16 AM)
There is the Thinker and with meditation, the one who watches the Thinker. Get to know the one who watches the thinking. The mind is inherantly pure, we can always go there. An empty mind is a ready mind, it is ready for anything.