This is the 2nd part of my post, in answer to why I get severe anxiety around lil kids? It's actually how I treated this response in myself.
My first answer solidified in my mind that I was having PTSD reactions. So when I had anxiety around kids, perhaps that was also a PTSD response.
How do you treat a strong PTSD response?
I was watching the TV news and saw that a professor at Emory University was working with GI's returning from the battlefield in Iraq. Some of them had severe PTSD. The one they used for an example had been riding in a vehicle on a dusty road. A mine exploded in front of them, killing some of his buddies and destroying the vehicle he was riding in. The PTSD part was that his mind kept reliving that trauma over and over and over and over again with the emotions of trauma. His treatment was that they showed him again and again short movies of of the vehicle he was in moving along that road, but they modified it so that he wasn't confronted with the entire scene at first.
My treatment for myself worked. It was inspired by what I just described.
I was kidnapped and experienced some brutal treatment. So I found some movies that showed boys responding to a situation of captivity and/or trauma. I watched them over and over and over again, allowing myself to experience the emotional response to the movie. Sometime I experienced tears and grief. It was important to go ahead and let that emotion flow. Then my reaction was decreasing over time. I needed to "identify" with a boy in a desperate situation for my healing to take place.
Different guys need different films, depending on the nature of their experience. The films Smooth Skin
and Jet Boy
didn't provoke me emotionally because I had not been in those kinds of situations very much. But I know these are the films which helped some guys the most.
The films which provoked a PTSD response in me and which could therefore be used to treat my own PTSD response were:Ransom
(Mel Gibson and Brawley Nolte(as boy)). The boy was kidnapped and tied to a bed. That really grabbed my attention.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YciKDqNfGFsI Am David
- Boy escapes from a gulag (prison camp) and finds kind people. This is a great story based on a book.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U-ayK9m0f_QI'm Not Scared
The point is that when you're watching the movie your identity has to get involved (even mixed up) with the boy in the pictureFlight of the Innocent
A boy is kidnapped. Another boy is pursued by the perpetrator; he is clever and escapes a bunch of timeshttp://www.blockbuster.com/browse/catalog/movie/trailer/83273Where Eskimos Live
. About some street children, one of whom is chosen by a perpetrator- type of guy to be sold for ... The setting is in Bosnia. The boy is Vlado. This movie has some really intriguing scenes and even some really funny situations. I recommend it. It has a few really nasty scenes too.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XGcVXsyPPvY