I'm glad you have found reading posts here helpful. Actually posting about yourself was a big step, which is to be commended. Silence does not bring healing, but telling the truth about what happened can.
You are in good company here. We are men from all walks of life, all ages, all shapes and sizes, all orientations, and many countries. We all have this one experience in common that has affected our lives so much. Sex problems? Oh yes, lots of them. You are definitely not alone.
Look forward to hearing more from you.
"When I was a child
I caught a fleeting glimpse
Out of the corner of my eye
I turned to look but it was gone
I cannot put my finger on it now
The child is grown, the dream is gone
And I have become comfortably numb."Pink Floyd