Thanks for the reply guys...it's awesome to know there are guys on here who enjoy being out in nature, though I can really relate to how lonely it can get sometimes. Lee - yeah it is snow there, they have just a bit left up on top, I had to tread some of it and I got scared every once in a while I might slip and fall into the valley somewhere!
I did another hike today, a shorter one, but a hike nonetheless. I had some more interesting, positive thoughts creeping into my mind. I think the main one was realizing how incredibly, incredibly *small* the perpetrators' world is. It's pitiful that they'd be so self-absorbed as to stifle the spirit of a kid, to lower the kid down to his level of not being able to enjoy life and to relegate things into a power-prism. I'm slowly rising above it and revitalizing myself, becoming comfortable with myself and being able to step outside and enjoy life for what it is. I think that's the 'last laugh' a survivor can have - that's *beating* the game. Experiencing life as it should be - full of adventure, energy, hope, mystery. I won't confine myself to their boring cycle anymore, and though it's hard to stay completely free of it, I'll keep stepping up.