Thanks for the reply guys...it's awesome to know there are guys on here who enjoy being out in nature, though I can really relate to how lonely it can get sometimes. Lee - yeah it is snow there, they have just a bit left up on top, I had to tread some of it and I got scared every once in a while I might slip and fall into the valley somewhere!
I did another hike today, a shorter one, but a hike nonetheless. I had some more interesting, positive thoughts creeping into my mind. I think the main one was realizing how incredibly, incredibly *small* the perpetrators' world is. It's pitiful that they'd be so self-absorbed as to stifle the spirit of a kid, to lower the kid down to his level of not being able to enjoy life and to relegate things into a power-prism. I'm slowly rising above it and revitalizing myself, becoming comfortable with myself and being able to step outside and enjoy life for what it is. I think that's the 'last laugh' a survivor can have - that's *beating* the game. Experiencing life as it should be - full of adventure, energy, hope, mystery. I won't confine myself to their boring cycle anymore, and though it's hard to stay completely free of it, I'll keep stepping up.
"Inaction breeds doubt and fear. Action breeds confidence and courage. If you want to conquer fear, do not sit home and think about it. Go out and get busy." - Dale CarnegieMy Story