this is so touchy story even it is based on TV show that probably has aim to bring many emotions to audience. Your tears were real!
Why not to have a dream in which only the best could come from your father? After all your tears came from your need to have great father, to feel his love, to be accepted by him and to be his proud son
In my thoughts your father would be your hero. He is the best father in the world. He would carry you around in his arms and on his neck while you are small kid, lol. He will show his son to the world with so much proud. He would be happy knowing how sensitive and genuine his son is.
And you know what?
He would come and take whatever is needed to defend you against those who would hurt you. Forget on bulling in school, locker room, during the dodge-ball play and all other abuses. Forget on mistreatment by your step father and his cruelty.
You would be protected; Your father would do whatever is needed to secure your safety even at his expense. Simple because he would genuinely love you as every father loves his child.
Please be free to dream, give yourself comfort. I'm sure you would have more than happy and positive relationship with your father