This thread is very relevant to me, though I'm not sure I have anything useful to add except thank you guys for giving me some big things to think about. I oscillate between being overly compliant and overly confrontative. Any healthy middle ground is still elusive.
Like a spent gladiator
crawling in the colosseum dust
who can count on his remaining limbs
all the people he can trust.
Like the one who stands behind him
cheering him on
Estatic when he stands defiant,
wild with abandon when he's gone
just stay alive.
do whatever you need to.
you are worth it.