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#422472 - 01/18/13 01:23 AM heavy lyrics from "Mountain Goats" (may trigger)
Jacob S Offline
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Registered: 01/01/13
Posts: 609
Loc: one foot out the door
"The Mountain Goats" is really just one guy, John Darnielle, who grew up in an abusive household. His songs are amazing and heartbreaking. I could go on and on but I'm just going to post some of my favorite lyrics that reference his abuse. Most of these can be found in some version on youtube.


From "Maybe Sprout Wings"

A bad dream shook me in my sleep
And I woke up sweating
Ran through the dark to the shower
Already forgetting

Try to think good thoughts
Trying to find my way clear
Let the room fill with steam
Trace pictures on the mirror

Ghosts and clouds
And nameless things
Squint your eyes and hope real hard
Maybe sprout wings



From "This Year"

I broke free on a Saturday morning
I put the pedal to the floor
headed north on mills avenue
and listened to the engine roar

. . .

i drove home in the California dusk
i could feel the alcohol inside of me hum
pictured the look on my stepfather's face
ready for the bad things to come

. . .

i am going to make it through this year
if it kills me
i am going to make it though this year
if it kills me



from "Dance Music"

And I'm five years old or six maybe
And indications that there's something wrong with our new house trip down the wire twice daily
I'm in the living room watching the Watergate hearings while my stepfather yells at my mother
Launches a glass across the room, straight at her head, and I dash upstairs to take cover
Lean in close to my little record player on the floor
So this is what the volume knob's for


And My Favorite Song:
Hast Thou Considered the Tetrapod

you are sleeping off your demons
when I come home.
spittle bubbling on your lips,
fine white foam

I am young and I am good.
it's a hot southern california day.
if I wake you up, there will be hell to pay.

and alone in my room,
I am the last of a lost civilization.
and I vanish into the dark
and rise above my station.
rise above my station.

but I do wake you up, and when I do
you blaze down the hall and you scream.
I'm in my room with the headphones on
deep in the dream chamber.
and then I'm awake and I'm guarding my face,
hoping you don't break my stereo.
because it's the one thing that I couldn't live without
and so I think about that and then I sorta black out.

held under these smothering waves
by your strong and thick veined hand,
but one of these days
I'm going to wriggle up on dry land.



I encourage you guys to look these songs up for yourself either on youtube or if you use other music services. Be warned though, if you think the lyrics are heavy his performance makes it twice as emotional.
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"These days I just try to keep to myself,
well aware I've lost touch with everyone else.
I understand that I'm fading away."

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#422565 - 01/18/13 07:11 PM Re: heavy lyrics from "Mountain Goats" (may trigger) [Re: Jacob S]
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Registered: 11/26/11
Posts: 104
Loc: Hamilton, ON Canada
Nobody except someone who's been through child abuse could write the words to those songs. Some of those were very triggering and cut very close to the truth about what happened when I was a kid, especially the stereo getting smashed by the dad.
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#424568 - 02/07/13 02:31 AM Re: heavy lyrics from "Mountain Goats" (may trigger) [Re: Jacob S]
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Registered: 09/02/11
Posts: 133
Loc: California
Jacob, I did look Mountain Goats up on YouTube. Thank you. This music is new to me. The songs are very beautiful and affecting.
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I won the moment he hurt me, because he poisoned his soul, and I did not poison mine. I did not hurt anyone. He did. He was the perp. He tried to make me into a victim, but I became a survivor. Yes.

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#470992 - 10/09/14 12:02 AM Re: heavy lyrics from "Mountain Goats" (may trigger) [Re: Jacob S]
Jacob S Offline
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Registered: 01/01/13
Posts: 609
Loc: one foot out the door
Maybe I didn't get enough milk when I was a baby
Maybe I never learned the value of a penny
Maybe I listened to that first Black Sabbath album, the one with the witch on the front, one time too many
But I think something wrong with me
I think something's wrong with me
I think something's glued down wrong permanently.

Maybe it's the things I never learned how to do
Maybe it's the things I learned to do real well
Maybe it's the Irish whiskey that I like to drink
Maybe it's the California zinfandel
But I think something's wrong with me
I think something's glued down wrong, maybe permanently.

I'm gonna tell you once, you gotta listen
You came here for comfort, you came to the wrong place
I got a strong stomach and a murmur in my heart,
I got a tremor in my hand, muscle twitches in my face
And I think something's wrong with me
I think something's snapped on wrong, maybe permanently
Yeah!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b9-t3tPq9uY
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"These days I just try to keep to myself,
well aware I've lost touch with everyone else.
I understand that I'm fading away."

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