Hey Goran, hang on buddy.
Many of us have same sex attraction and confusion because of abuse.
You are not alone with this.
It is OK to be gay
It is OK also not to take some labels.
It is OK to also not share such intimate details with others. I don't want to discus such issue with my relatives at all, especially if I know that some of them could be toxic and not supportive to me.
But here I like to discus every possible problem that I have including problems with intimacy and confusion.
You have friends here, keep sharing with us, we are here to give support to each other.