Welcome to MS. We are men of all ages, all walks of life, with one thing in common: we were all sexually abused at some point in our lives. You will find alot of men's stories here, some like yours, some very different, but the results that we all live with: shame, anger, fear, difficulty with sexuality and relationships, are similar no matter what we've been through.
Keep posting and reading. You'll find alot of support here. Good luck!
"But now old friends are acting strange,
they shake their heads, they say I've changed.
Something's lost but something's gained in living every day
....it's life's illusions I recall, I really don't know life at all. "Joni Mitchell