It's my birthday too (36).
Doesn't it suck having your birthday so close to christmas. What is it about birthdays that is so hard?
Getting older forces everyone to 'take stock' of their lives and we all have 'if only's' and 'what if's'. My youthfulness has always been so important to me (and the world). It is hard to come to terms with losing it.
It's just another day, but man... being in my mid 30's has really forced me to face my mortality.
Anyway...Happy Birthday!!!! Brother - I feel your pain.
PS I hope dinner goes well