Hey,

My name is Mosiak, well it's not my actual name but on here I guess it will be.
I'm 19 years old from Nordic Europe,
I live with my grandmother in a very small suburbia type neighbourhood, it's about 30 kilometres from our major capital area but we actually are part of the capital, it's just located across the bay and with no bridges around you kinda have to drive the long way around to get there.

The reason I live with my grandmother is because my mother lost custody of me when I was 16 years old. My mother isn't the person who hurt me when I was younger but she was accused of neglect and child endangerment. Because she knew about what was happening and did nothing to stop it

I have been diagnosed with all kinds of mental disorders, some which are connected to my past, I have poor social skills, low self esteem, anxiety disorder, depression and things along those lines. I also have this thing where I can't grasp well when spoken to, that is I hear the words but I can't understand them, or put them together to understand the concept of what is being said to me. I'm not sure about the English words for this but perhaps some of you might know what I am talking about.


I live a very private and isolated life, I have no friends or close family, except my grandma who is also the only person I talk to on daily basis. I haven't had friends since I was 10, I barely remember what that's like.

I do get lonely once in a while, but over all I prefer the solitude.

Anyway, I suppose this wasn't a very positive picture of myself, but its just the facts, I'm not a positive individual

welcome, Mosiak!

perhaps you will find friends here and be able to communicate more freely. i hope so. i certainly have found much help, support, encouragement and friendship here.

Lee

Hello Mosiak! Welcome to this site, and I will be glad to be your friend here. I came here in July and there are a lot of good people here, and good information too. I do not know your story and you do not have to share abuse details until you are ready. My abuse started around age 5 and continued into my life at college. I am dealing with it now and healing too. So I welcome you Brother, and I am glad you are here.

Hey Mosiak

Thanks for sharing some of your story with us.

So many of us struggle with the 'mental disorders' you listed. It is funny I have most of them too but I have never thought of myself as having a mental disorder. I guess I think that is just what happens to us when we were abused as a kid.

It makes me sad to think that your mother let you down like that. I am sorry!!

I hope like myself you will find a way to find friends here and be able to communicate with them in a real and true way.

Don't be so hard on yourself about being a negative person...it is to be expected.

So anyway Welcome.

hey Mosiak ...

We are chatting as I write this ...

You certainly have no problem communicating here ... that is wonderful!


You will find friends because you are already among them ..

and undoubtedly you will find a few who will become deeper
friends too ....

Welcome !!!!!

Just noticed you pop in and pop out of chat ....

there are a lot of VERY opinionated people in there right now ...

it's not often like that ... don't be discouraged

thanks everyone for the welcome and the nice words,

Hi Mosiak. You write very well.