I am tired of getting nowhere
after miles of walking round
I am weary from the heartache
and the torment most profound

I look forward to the endzone
when my life at last is blest
and my eyes close in quiet slumber
in life’s final bed of rest

do not weep for me my brother
do not think me all alone
I have traveled the road with many
all the others met and known

yet I cannot keep believing
there are better days in store
now all I want Is sweet surrender
never hurting any more

I’ve no plan for going over
there’s no map to lead me there
but in steadfast determination
I wish to leave this place of care

So I'll just wait upon this hillside
as the sun begins to set
releasing the need to remember
what the child chose to forget

the last two lines are so poignant -
and a state that i aspire to:

*** releasing the need to remember
what the child chose to forget ***

Lee

Very powerful. I feel I am walking in your shoes

MarkK,

Good Job. Your poem is profound and also maudlin. I don't share your unique perspective as I fear it would swallow up my joy.
"..getting nowhere, after miles...weary from heatache...torment most profound"
Your attention to turn of phrase is impressive my friend, and the ache of living acquires a weight unknown before as I read your poignant lines. "releasing the need to remember, what the child chose to forget" are two lines that will linger in my mind for hours as I turn them over and savor what they have to offer.

I know not if your own efforts are driven as mine are, by a muse urging ever onward to purge the terrible memory, by the screams of a child within, who cannot rest until my lips proclaim his grief and pain.

Whatever the reason, however you reach the place of creation...a comfort are your words, they linger like the peals of a bell.

Geoff

sometimes it gets very difficult to believe that words sometimes dark and foreboding can bring others comfort. I understand how I can get comfort just by the emotions that are released... but how others can get anything positive from it is a mystery.

Mark -

"We Read to Know We Are Not Alone." quote from C.S. Lewis in the film, "Shadowlands"

i don't know if he actually said that but it is the most memorable line in the film to me - and may explain what you said above: "how others can get anything positive from it is a mystery."

i think it is also one of the reasons we write - hoping there will be a connection with another mind or soul who has had the same thought or feeling or experience...

so keep on writing - keep on reading - hopefully, it helps us all...
Lee