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#8503 - 06/24/05 12:53 PM Well...Thank you
Leosha Offline
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Registered: 06/18/03
Posts: 3614
Loc: Right here
Now that my not quite 29-year old friend is being released from the hospital for a 'mild' heart attack (as he said to the doctor, we will see how 'mild' it is when it is YOUR heart we are speaking of!), I am having the moments to rather settle back in at home. It is an unerving experience, to see someone not so much older then you in such a situation (he will be having surgery in 2 weeks, yes, I will be asking for good thoughts over on the 'Spirituality' side!)

It is situations such as this that rather mark what is of true importence, and what really is not. I think a lot of my mental turmoil I put myself through, it falls into the latter category.

Things, so many things have been rather emotional in our little 'circle of trust' (Go rent 'Meet the Parents', great laugh movie!) recently. Hard decisions being made. Emotional and physical pains. It can be quite contaminating to the spirit, because honest, how many people enjoy seeing someone they care of in pain?

Yesterday, it was I think 'catharsis' some for me. In both good and bad ways. Although I guess both were for the good, but one was more happy, one more sad. Seeing a close friend falling apart into tears, tears I have never seen of him before, truly. It is like tearing down that unemotional wall, which is such the huge step in healing. It was sad, but positive at the same time.

I was asking, the universe, God, whoever, please show me something positive today. And only now, as I am writing this, I realize how selfish that was. Because truly, there is positive all around us. Sunny sky. Bright flowers. Happy children. Whatever. We just often do not notice it! But the universe was kind to me. I got my 'sign'. Seeing happiness and joy, the innocent happiness of a child on the face of another friend yesterday, lifted me so much. Sometime it seems that negativity, depression, it is contagious. But I discovered yesterday, or rediscovered, that joy is quite infectious also. I am blessed. Truly I am.

Thank you for allowing me to be whatever 'me' I need to be here.

Thank you for allowing me to speak how I need to.

Thank you for allowing me to feel whatever I feel and still be accepted here.

Thank you for liking me, hating me, being disgusted by me, whatever you feel about me, and being honest with me about it.

Thank you for being a 'home' of sort to come home to.

Thank you for honoring me by sharing of yourselves here also. I am humbled by the courage, the integrity, and the strength of human spirit that is so easily found here.

They say that a chain, it is only so strong as it's weakest link. I think the members here form the strongest chain imagineable. Because truly, there is no weakest link here. You all are quite remarkable, and again, I am humbled to be in the presence of greatness here. Thank you all.

I originally was going to post this on the member side. But again. There is no weakest link here. All deserve to feel the gratitude of this member. Thank you ALL. I learn from each of you, and value it.

Leosha

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Avatar photo in memory of my younger brother Makar.

"Human salvation lies in the hands of the creatively maladjusted."~~~Martin Luther King Jr., 1963

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#8504 - 06/24/05 01:09 PM Re: Well...Thank you
markgreyblue Offline
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Registered: 12/19/03
Posts: 5400
Loc: Pasadena, CA
Leosha -

Thank you for a great post -

Mark

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"...do not look outside yourself for the leader."
-wisdom of the hopi elders

"...the sign of a true leader is service..." - anonymous



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#8505 - 06/24/05 01:47 PM Re: Well...Thank you
reality2k4 Offline
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Registered: 07/06/04
Posts: 6838
Loc: Stuck between water, air, and ...
Thank you for such a positive post. Yes, there are a lot of good things in life if we choose to see them, and be happy about them.

I am sorry that your friend is hurting, and I hope he will be OK. You Russian guys are all the coolest people here,

Peace,

ste

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#8506 - 06/24/05 08:27 PM Re: Well...Thank you
Shawn Offline
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Registered: 06/24/05
Posts: 5
Loc: California
Leosha,

You have such a way with words -- yes, I am a friend who has returned for a bit -- I haven't been here in some time, and what do I find -- a post from you that has so much vitality, so much strength, so much of YOU. I have never in my life heard anyone write like you. For english to be a second language for you -- you speak it remarkable. You get your point across and you make others think. You make others believe in who they are. I am proud you are my friend. Thank you for sharing that post. And thank you for being YOU.

Shawn


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#8507 - 06/25/05 06:21 AM Re: Well...Thank you
VN Offline
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Registered: 06/03/05
Posts: 723
I thank your kind words and positive ideas. You - one of greatness also my friend. I really estimate everything, that you have made for me and continue to do(make) for me.

VN


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#8508 - 06/25/05 04:37 PM Re: Well...Thank you
FLRich Offline
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Registered: 06/21/04
Posts: 1404
Leshka,

"You have mail!"


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#8509 - 06/25/05 10:58 PM Re: Well...Thank you
RICK57 Offline
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Registered: 12/31/03
Posts: 1611
Loc: ENGLAND
Leosha - you were asking God and The Universe to show you something positive.

Do you realise that many see you as one of our blessings here - you may not always see the positive side, but just remember you are seen as a man of strength, intelligence and compassion.

Isn't that something positive.

Best wishes ...Rik

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*Never look down on anybody unless you're helping them up.
*I was seeking a way of expressing my anger - I found hope!
*There are many battles before the war is won! It can be won!

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#8510 - 06/26/05 09:07 AM Re: Well...Thank you
ak Offline
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Registered: 01/10/04
Posts: 1491
Thank you for sharing yourself here, and for helping friends to find here also. I owe you greatly for that, for helping me to find myself here.

Andrei


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