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#84494 - 10/04/06 02:19 PM Victim tells of grandad's abuse
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A TRAUMATISED grandson who was molested as a child by his paedophile grandad Leonard Smith says: "I hope he rots in his cell."

Speaking exclusively to News Shopper, Kevin Smith has bravely told of how he was sexually abused from the age of 12 for four years at the hands of his grandfather.

He was just one of eight innocent young victims sexually abused by Smith and he hopes his story will encourage others who have suffered sexual abuse to come forward.

Waiving his right to anonymity, 25-year-old Kevin revealed the catalogue of abuse which ultimately led him to try and take his own life as a teenager and told how:

Smith brazenly abused him under the nose of his family at his former home in Stanstead Road, Lewisham

Touched him up in public toilets in a cafe in Lee and a pub in New Cross

And would dress up as Santa Claus and sit youngsters on his knee at the former North Cray Social Club in Bexley.

Speaking from his current family home in Oakdene Road, Orpington, Kevin said: "This man has turned my life upside down.

"At first I thought what he was doing was normal. I thought every grandad touched up their grandsons.

"He told me I was his special friend and when he touched me he told me to imagine being with a sexy woman."

Kevin says he was first abused by Smith on Boxing Day 1993 at the family home in Lewisham.
Leonard Smith, jailed for eight-and-a-half years


He said: "My mum, dad and nan were waving people off at the front door. I was sat on his knee and he put his hands down my trousers.

"When he heard them coming back, he whipped his hand out as quickly as possible."

From then on Kevin says his grandad, who worked as a mechanic, became very calculating as he continued to abuse him.

Kevin said: "He would make excuses to come into my room, telling everyone he was going to play computer games with me.

"But we didn't play computer games at all."

The former pupil of Crofton Secondary School in Manwood Road, Brockley, says the abuse became more aggressive as he got older.

He says the unrelenting molesting and bullying at school led him to attempt to take his own life when he was aged around 13: "I became sick to the stomach when I saw him, but felt powerless to stop what he was doing to me.

"One day I tried to hang myself in my bedroom using a dressing gown chord. The rope broke free from my wardrobe so it didn't work, but I went blue and passed out."

For years the sordid details of Smith's abuse were kept secret by his string of victims and when Kevin's grandmother Joan died of heart failure when he was 16, he saw much less of Smith.

Assistant manager Kevin, who works for the British School of Motoring office in Streatham, south London, was first to come forward after he told his fiancee Dawn Healey about the abuse in January last year.

The last time he saw Smith was at his engagement party the following month where Smith made his final pass.

Kevin said: "I didn't want him to come, but as my parents still didn't know I had no choice but to invite him."At first I thought what he was doing was normal. I thought every grandad touched up their grandsons."
Kevin Smith

"He came up to me at one point in the night and whispered in my ear, Do you want to go upstairs and relive old times?'

"It made me feel sick and I felt like punching him, but I firmly said No' and turned away."

When Kevin told his parents the truth about Smith in March last year he says it rocked the family to the core.

Kevin's dad Mick, 54, said: "When I found out what my dad had done, you could have hit me with a sledgehammer and I wouldn't have noticed.

"It totally floored me. I couldn't believe it. My dad was always a popular man. Now looking back we know his love of kids was not innocent, like we thought it was.

"He used to dress up as Santa Claus, do magic tricks and generally be the life and soul of the party."

Smith was first arrested at his home in the Isle of Grain, north Kent, in April last year and questioned over some of the allegations.

He was then arrested again in October to face further questions as more victims began to come forward.

Incredibly, he was released on bail both times and was even pictured speaking to young children outside his home by a national newspaper.

The family have not been in touch with Smith since the shocking revelations about his past came out in March last year.

Kevin's mother Lynne says she doesn't believe Smith feels any remorse.

She said: "His defence in court said he is sorry for the distress he caused, but not once has he attempted to apologise. Not once did he look at his victims sat in the public gallery to mouth the word sorry'."

Smith originally pleaded not guilty when he appeared at Greenwich Magistrates' Court on November 4 last year.

But he then pleaded guilty to 17 of the 25 charges at a later hearing on July 21 at Woolwich Crown Court.

Mick Smith added: "Plea bargaining has gone and it's clear to us he's only changed his plea in order to look more favourable to the judge. Essentially to try and save his own skin, and not for thought of his victims."

Since coming forward and telling police, Kevin has endured a 20-month ordeal of police interviews and court cases, which have often been re-scheduled at the last minute, prolonging the pain of those who Smith abused.

Speaking outside court following the sentencing, Kevin says he finally feels a sense of closure and now hopes, through more counselling and support, to move on with his life.

Before jailing Smith, Judge Michael Carroll sent out a stark message saying a custodial sentence was the best way to punish what he described as "seasoned paedophiles", as opposed to rehabilitation.

He told Smith how he had abused his position as a grandfather before finally sending him down.

He added: "It is my fervent hope you will not be considered for release on parole until you have served at least two-thirds of your sentence."

More on Leonard Smith's years of child abuse - click here

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#84495 - 10/04/06 03:38 PM Re: Victim tells of grandad's abuse
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Ste,

I hope all the new guys here take note of this one:

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"At first I thought what he was doing was normal. I thought every grandad touched up their grandsons."
That happens so often. It reminds me of the case of one of our members in particular, who told me how he went to school one day and his class was shown a video about good/bad touching. He was horrified. This was his first clue that what his Dad was doing to him WASN'T okay.

We need to remember that it is NEVER a boy's task to figure out crap like this. It's the older person's job to keep their hands off.

Much love,
Larry

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#84496 - 10/04/06 06:52 PM Re: Victim tells of grandad's abuse
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Larry,

I posted it because of the theme, and how the guy broke with anonymity to disclose for others to come forward.

If he had have hanged himself, the beast would be free, I am glad it never went to plan.
The other good thing is that he exposed it early, and never let the abuser get beyond a reasonable jail term.

I hope others come forward like this guy,

ste

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#84497 - 10/04/06 06:58 PM Re: Victim tells of grandad's abuse
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Ste,

Yes, it was a brave thing he did and I'm glad it worked out for him as it did. I just hope he is getting all the help he needs now that the spotlight is off.

Much love,
Larry

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#84498 - 10/27/06 12:27 PM Re: Victim tells of grandad's abuse
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i am kevin smith, i told my story to the paper because i truly believe that there are other victims of this monster (i cannot call him my grandfather anymore after what he did to me). This vile padeophile was involved in so many community schemes including a boys football club.
The only thing that has upset me through this is the response of the other victims it seems like they wish to sweep it under the carpet. Reality2k4 makes a very good point had i been succesfull in my attempt to hang myself the secret would have died with me and perhaps he would have gone on to abuse my brothers children who knows, i am not a religous person but maybe some force was looking down on me that day. However theese other victims only came forward whith a little pressure at one stage i honestly thought i would have to go through the court case on my own. This story was originally going to be in the national papers but because the fuss other victims caused it was withdrawn a day before. I just wonder why do they feel ashamed it happened to them? do they feel remorse towards a monster who destroyed their lives? im not sure but this was my way of dealing with it he had even gone as far to tell people from his family that he was going away to island to look after a sick person and no one would be able to get in contact with him.

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#84499 - 10/27/06 02:23 PM Re: Victim tells of grandad's abuse
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Kevin, welcome, and yes, I trawl all the local papers looking for this type of event.
There will be many others, but thankfully he will not be free to do his evil deeds.

People do not understand the massive impact on the victims and their families, often ending in total denial, but I am glad some came forward.

Thanks for finding this place,

ste

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#84500 - 10/27/06 03:44 PM Re: Victim tells of grandad's abuse
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Kevin, I want to tell you that your disclosure, and the aftermath, is nothing short of inspiring to me; I'm sure many here feel the same way.

You asked:

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Originally posted by kevsta:
I just wonder why do they feel ashamed it happened to them?
I think there's all kinds of reasons. For instance, I was ashamed because I did not complain or resist; I thought that meant there was something wrong with me. After not telling for a while, I was further ashamed because it seemed to me that by not telling, I was responsible for any abuse these perps committed in my absence. I realize none of this was true, but I believed it then.

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#84501 - 10/27/06 04:23 PM Re: Victim tells of grandad's abuse
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Kevin,

Welcome to MS, and like others, I want you to know what a brave and inspiring thing you did when you exposed the man who abused you. It was your courage that made it possible for others to come forward.

You raise an important issue in your post:

Quote:
The only thing that has upset me through this is the response of the other victims it seems like they wish to sweep it under the carpet.
In so many cases the abused boy thinks the abuse was all his fault somehow, and that feeling lingers on as he grows up and becomes an adult. The other victims may still be carrying the burden of guilt and shame, not realizing that this burden belongs 100% to the abuser and not at all to them.

I hope you will stick around here on the site and see what there is here that can help you. It's a great community of guys, and everyone here will understand and support you.

Can I ask you, since the trial have you sought professional support at all? If not, it really is a good idea. It's a great thing that you got the abuser locked up, but there are usually other issues that arise for a survivor and these don't get resolved by the fact that the abuser is now in jail.

Much love,
Larry

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Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
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#84502 - 11/01/06 10:42 PM Re: Victim tells of grandad's abuse
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thank you for your words of support. in ansewer to your question larry yes i have recieved councelling i would have gone mad without it.

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#84503 - 11/01/06 10:48 PM Re: Victim tells of grandad's abuse
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thank you for your words of support. in ansewer to your question larry yes i have recieved councelling i would have gone mad without it.

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