It is interesting to me, to come here for second time in long time, and see this post. I was just thinking some about this myself, today. I go more often to a forum that is mixed, male and female, but of course, more is female there, only I and another male who post regular there. But I wonder today, is it because I have the low esteem, does that make me less threat to the ladies there? Is that why I am welcome there, because I am less of a 'man' in behavior? I know this is not real a response at you, just is what I was thinking of earlier today. I hope that you continue to do the journal, I think it help to settle your thoughts more? And maybe, if you do document of the times you feel better of yourself, you can see patterns, of what you feel good about, and do those things more often. I wish you well.
Avatar photo in memory of my younger brother Makar.
"Human salvation lies in the hands of the creatively maladjusted."~~~Martin Luther King Jr., 1963