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#82639 - 06/24/04 01:32 AM Best describes how i feel today
al Offline
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Registered: 01/08/03
Posts: 143
Loc: canada
The Angels Mourn

Take me away
To a place where there’s no pain
And I can cause no hurt
Or disappointment
Or unrest
Or dissatisfaction.
Sorrow
Tears
Loneliness
I cause all these things
And more.
Why would someone care
For something as disgusting
As me…
Why waste another breath
On shit such as this body
Represents…
What is wrong
With God for Him
To want to keep me here
On this earth
Torturing
And causing all the pain I do.
I am not even good enough
For heaven.
Heaven doesn’t even want me.
They turn me away
At the door.
Even Saint Peter weeps
As he has laid eyes on me.
The angels mourn
The fall of Heaven,
For even it is not holy
Because of my presence.
Fountains weep tears of sadness
Until I am gone from their sight.
The trumpets blare
Who do you think you are?!
Harps shed their strings
Flutes lose their tunes
The opening curtain closes
Slowly
Sadly
Finally.
The blue jay
Announcing my arrival
Skips a note
And turns away.
All that I hold beautiful
And dear
Is thrown into
The monstrous pyre.
Even God Himself
Finds me so
Revolting
Disappointing
Disgusting
He will not even waste the energy
To shake His head
Or shrug his shoulders
On account of me.
Once again
The angels mourn.

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Those who dance appear insane to those who cannot hear the music. Mark Kleiman

Kites rise highest against the wind, not with it. Winston Churchill

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#82640 - 07/04/04 07:28 AM Re: Best describes how i feel today
Malidin41 Offline
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Registered: 07/01/04
Posts: 140
Loc: Utah
Thankyou my friend for sharing this very deep poem. I do not believe you are worthless but I deffinitly know how it feels to think you are worthless. I have struggled so much in my life with self-esteem issues and still do. The thing that we both should remember is that we hold lots of love inside and that we are very worth while people because of that. I know that God exists and that he loves us more than we can possably imagine. I am sorry that you are struggling with this and I wish you all the best things this world has to offer. You have writen a great poem, it is obvious you have a wonderful tallent I can not wait to read more from you. In this poem there was some talk that might say suicide and I just wanted to say that suicide is never the way to handle things. It is extreamly selfish and foolish. I know that at times it may seem like its the only way out but believe me when I say there are always better ways to deal with things than that. If there is any time you would like to talk or just need someone to listen please feel free to pm me any time. Thanks again my friend for having the courage to share this powerful poem.

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Mother of the kingdom of silence I have obeyed you long enough!!!

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