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#82610 - 06/17/04 04:23 PM The Losing of Myself (POSSIBLE TRIGGERS!)
crisispoint Offline
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Registered: 09/24/03
Posts: 2154
Loc: Massachusetts
The Losing of Myself


For all that you have taken from me,
It's the Self that I should've been.
One, whole, righteous, good man.
A strong, capable, loving being.
But instead, you have left us Three
For we cannot bear the weight of your crime as one.
Three, do you hear? THREE!
Where One should have been, now there are Three!
One is me, or I should say myself.
A man to show the world, yet born of failure.
Functioning, yet horribly flawed.
Not what God intended, but formed by patchwork.
Decided to at least be what you can never be!
Another is the child you wounded
And felt so low about himself, he took my hurt,
MY HURT, the one I EARNED, because I could not
Bear it. Because he felt he deserved no better.
A child who wants to love, but can never deserve it
Because of what you gave him.
Then there is Vengeance, Righteous Anger,
Who can't bear to be so weak again.
He would kill you, kill you all, if I gave
Him warrent to. Bathe this world in the
Blood of YOUR sin! A mojo who fears no one
And resents only myself apart from the evil ones.
Resents me because I am weak, that I have a heart,
That I view you, even you, as worth to live.
The weight of your crime is on not One but Three.
Surely this should give you pause,
Because of you, Three hunt you,
And will gain the revenge that One can't have.


The loss of self is the worst thing.

Peace and love,

Scot

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#82611 - 07/04/04 08:49 AM Re: The Losing of Myself (POSSIBLE TRIGGERS!)
Malidin41 Offline
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Registered: 07/01/04
Posts: 140
Loc: Utah
Thankyou for sharing that poem, I to have that need for revenge, to shatter and destroy the one person that I can never forgive. The one person that hurt me to a degree that runs deep through my core. I hate that you to had to indure this pain but I must say that you are very couragous to share these deep emotions I thankyou so much for doing so for it helps to know that I am not alone in my anger. Hang in there my friend things will get better.

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#82612 - 07/22/04 04:47 PM Re: The Losing of Myself (POSSIBLE TRIGGERS!)
reality2k4 Offline
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Registered: 07/06/04
Posts: 6838
Loc: Stuck between water, air, and ...
Always wondered whether these beasts had a conscience from when I was a kid, this poem quite rightly shows they do, their own conscience hunting themselves down for life, maybe eternity!

Wonder how many mill-stones they can carry before they can't bear it any more, when their consciences' catch up with them, as I am sure they do, I hope their agony is a thousand fold, of that which they have given.

It will still not be enough, for stealing one childs' life, a life no more.

But we must prove them wrong

What a thought!

Peace

ste

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