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#82578 - 05/18/04 08:33 PM Loss And Prison(Possible Triggers)
fusionoflove Offline
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Registered: 05/03/04
Posts: 112
Loc: Los Angeles, CA
I wrote this two days ago. I hope it reaches someone out there.

You
Rip away innocence with sandpaper hands and metal teeth.
Me
Speaking in tongues, babbling.
You
Razorblade words,"Shut up, shut up, shut up,
quiet, quiet, quiet."
Me
Childlike, trying to catch a daydream.
You
Squeeze a free-flowing flower into dirt.
Me
Please God, let this be over. Let soft thoughts caress this disconnected body and soul. Give me wings where I have arms. So I can take flight and fly into the night. I'm imprisoned within this half-eaten flesh.
You
Are not evil.
You
Are a vampire.
Me
Oh no, the walls are closing in.Run, Chris, run!!!
But I cannot move.Then play dead, Chris, play dead.
RAPE!!RAPE!!
And everyday since, I hear your heards in my head.
"Shut Up, Shut Up, Shut Up, Quiet, Quiet, Quiet."
Will I ever be clean again?
Where does my new story begin?


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#82579 - 05/19/04 06:08 AM Re: Loss And Prison(Possible Triggers)
Ivanhoe Offline
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Registered: 03/19/03
Posts: 1907
Chris,

You got to me...i was a combination of running and playing dead...i ran from my family and played dead for him...dead boy running.

Welcome to the clubhouse, the fort...sorry that you had to go looking for us, but glad you found us.

David

_________________________
"No soul is desolate as long as there is a human being for whom it can feel trust and reverence."
George Eliot

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