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#82483 - 04/06/04 05:23 PM Hands (TRIGGERS!)
crisispoint Offline
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Registered: 09/24/03
Posts: 2154
Loc: Massachusetts
Hands


My small hand was wrapped tightly
In your big one.
Squeezed by the wrist and
Squashed underneath your sweaty
Palm.

I remember it all now, like a still
Photograph, but with touch.
Cheap vinyl sticking to my skin.
Weight on top of me.

Year later, I can see so
Clearly that I wasn't as big
As I thought I was. Or
As you thought I was.

My other hand beat you,
Flailed, scratched, hurt you.
But not enough. You took your
Other big hand from my face and slapped me.

I was a child! A boy! You were bigger.
Even if I was an athlete, I couldn't have
Moved you off me. Tried to bite,
You almost broke my jaw.

You didn't want to hear me then,
Almost vomited in your giant hand.
Screamed, pleaded, I can still hear my
Muted cries and your "shut the fuck up!"

Hands all over me, too big. My small
Hands beating a mountain, my body
Speared by you and still trying to
Get away from you.

Now all I see is the snapshot of
Your hand crushing mine.

Who was more to blame?


\:\(

Scot

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#82484 - 04/06/04 09:15 PM Re: Hands (TRIGGERS!)
Ivanhoe Offline
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Registered: 03/19/03
Posts: 1907
Scot,

Once again, you tear at the very gut of me...

but you were never, never, never to blame ever, ever, ever.

David

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"No soul is desolate as long as there is a human being for whom it can feel trust and reverence."
George Eliot

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