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#82483 - 04/06/04 05:23 PM Hands (TRIGGERS!)
crisispoint Offline

Registered: 09/24/03
Posts: 2154
Loc: Massachusetts

My small hand was wrapped tightly
In your big one.
Squeezed by the wrist and
Squashed underneath your sweaty

I remember it all now, like a still
Photograph, but with touch.
Cheap vinyl sticking to my skin.
Weight on top of me.

Year later, I can see so
Clearly that I wasn't as big
As I thought I was. Or
As you thought I was.

My other hand beat you,
Flailed, scratched, hurt you.
But not enough. You took your
Other big hand from my face and slapped me.

I was a child! A boy! You were bigger.
Even if I was an athlete, I couldn't have
Moved you off me. Tried to bite,
You almost broke my jaw.

You didn't want to hear me then,
Almost vomited in your giant hand.
Screamed, pleaded, I can still hear my
Muted cries and your "shut the fuck up!"

Hands all over me, too big. My small
Hands beating a mountain, my body
Speared by you and still trying to
Get away from you.

Now all I see is the snapshot of
Your hand crushing mine.

Who was more to blame?



There are reasons I'm taking medication. They're called "other people." - Me, displaying my anti-social tendancies

#82484 - 04/06/04 09:15 PM Re: Hands (TRIGGERS!)
Ivanhoe Offline

Registered: 03/19/03
Posts: 1907

Once again, you tear at the very gut of me...

but you were never, never, never to blame ever, ever, ever.


"No soul is desolate as long as there is a human being for whom it can feel trust and reverence."
George Eliot


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