Just read your poem, wished I had that command of the language. We even have a couple of Russian guys here who write better stuff than I can.
Keep coming back and getting it out. We have a saying here: "Sorry that you had to go looking for a place like this, but we're glad that you've joined us."
I don't know how much you have read around the site, but I know that you'll find this group of guys to be one of the most supportive that you've ever met.
Please, tell us more of yourself, when you're ready.
I'm one of the newer Moderators, here, but I have to be the oldest member. They just keep me around for a novelty. I made it to the conference in Minneapolis this past September and a Level I retreat this past November. Besides being the best group of guys I've ever met, this site saved my life since I found it in March of last year.
Wlcome and make yourself at home,
"No soul is desolate as long as there is a human being for whom it can feel trust and reverence."