Hoo boy, this is hard. On the one hand, I've literally poured out my heart and emptied my head here, and it felt good. It feels good to let the bad stuff out as well as the good.
On the other hand, it brings the pictures back on a clearer, more brutal level. It sometimes feels like revictimization ("You promised," "Too Old," etc.). But it has helped me deal with it on MY terms. I control the imagery and how I use it, not the other way around.
Lord, it can be the hardest thing in the world to deal with hard memories, and I don't know if it will help YOU deal or not, but remember, if you're dealing with it on YOUR terms, you're taking control back, too.
I hope this helps, my friend. I enjoy reading what you have to say.
Peace and love,
There are reasons I'm taking medication. They're called "other people." - Me, displaying my anti-social tendancies