Not so much a poem as a rant. Please do not read this if you are easily triggered.
Trading off my dignity
For your arms around me.
Let you guide my head down
To what you want of me.
I hear your voice again
Telling me "don't worry,
I won't make you swallow it.
Been through this too many times
Able to blind myself
To the disgust. I don't
Look as I take you into me.
I don't feel as I keep
Sucking off of what I
Don't want to touch.
You breathe harder and move my head
Around you. I comply not
Knowing more of what you want.
I can get through this, You'll
Simply pull me away when you're
Ready. Maybe make me watch
As it comes out (I don't want to!).
Shoving yourself harder into me. I
Can't breathe. Try to pull away and
You push me down harder. No.
Taste it now, coming. Don't want
To! Can't breathe! Try to yell.
Pull my hair. Scream. Shove it in
Deeper! Force me into you. Fighting!
No! Can't breathe! Let go!
Scream! Can't! "Shut up, Bitch!"
Why are you doing this to me?
You love me! No! Choking! Taste it!
"Cunt, take it all!" No! Why?!
Please! I thought you... Taste it!
Horrible! Help me! Someone! Spraying!
Tastes bad! Please! You promised!
Coughing. Push it down my throat!
"Almost done! Keep going!" You Promised!
Liar! You Promised! You're hurting me!
You Promised! Not you too! Not you!
Said you loved me! Fucking Liar! You
Promised! You said you....LIAR!
Sorry, brothers. I had to get it out.
Peace for today. I hope peace forever someday.