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#81956 - 12/31/05 03:25 PM When A Post Is Answered
Bobby Offline
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MaleSurvivor

Registered: 12/01/04
Posts: 1287
Loc: Arizona
He answered my post
And, holy shit, he knew
He knew exactly how I felt!
How could he know?
How?
But,he was there...really there
I could tell he was there
I could tell he understood
He knew

And in that moment, I was not alone

How to describe the feeling?
A piercing light?
Electric current?

A sudden crying out

Of anguish?
No, not anguish
Pain?
Yes, pain
But the pain of recognition
Pain shared
Pain flowing out, no longer held inside

A loneliness so deep, so dark
So unbearable

And suddenly there in words
An understanding

He understands!!!
He knows!!!
Oh, God, he knows!!!!

Someone knows
Someone feels
Someone's here with me
Down here
Down here...there's someone here
Oh, God, I'm not alone
He knows the way it feels....thank God he knows

And he becomes an instant friend
I don't know who he is
Or what he does
Or how he lives

But I know how he feels
I know his pain
I know his hurt
I even know his heart, perhaps
The part that he has hidden deep inside where he thinks no one will ever find it again
Can ever hurt it again
Will ever hold it tenderly with love again

But I am there
Immediately there
Inside his heart
And he in mine
Because we are the same, we two
He knows
Oh God, he knows

We may not ever talk again
But somehow I am less alone
For once someone has touched your heart again
Found it in your sacred hiding place
Once you know that soul exists

Well, you can never be the same, can you?

You can never be alone again
Life can never be as bleak
No longer can pretend there's no one there

One knows
And then another
And then another

And each one finds your heart a different way
Lifts your soul a different way
Shows his love a different way

Or sometimes never comes again

But you are not alone
Oh God, deep down there in your blackness
You don't have to be alone

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I'm healing now, and I wasn't sure I would.




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#81957 - 01/01/06 12:11 AM Re: When A Post Is Answered
reality2k4 Offline
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Registered: 07/06/04
Posts: 6838
Loc: Stuck between water, air, and ...
Bobby,

you are never alone in the World. Sometimes it look that way, but no, you are not alone.

The evil spirits that take away our very right of uniqueness, are banished now, and they are no more.

I have visited the darkness of my own mind,far too often, but it is not of mine, or your doing, it is the possession of the past.

Move on to a higher plain,let light fill the darkness.

In your poems, you speak of this light, it is yours to take you forwars in life, and I guess you deep down know it, but are scared to make the step into this new found light.

Revive lil bobby from all his hurt, let him live as I read in your poetry, he is a beautiful lil boy, and he steers your life, so let him play now.

Your friend,

ste

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Whoever stole the Sun, put it back and we'll drop all the charges!

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#81958 - 01/01/06 07:02 AM Re: When A Post Is Answered
shadowkid Offline
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Registered: 11/18/05
Posts: 2437
bobby .i felt that same way when i first talked with you and like you said there came others who have touched me and each one is something new and wonderfull to me. adam

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its not hard to fall
when you float like a cannonball - damien rice

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#81959 - 01/10/06 05:52 AM Re: When A Post Is Answered
Derdlecar Offline
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MaleSurvivor

Registered: 11/08/05
Posts: 1314
Loc: Ogden Utah, USA
Bobby,

I'm back on line on a more regular basis now and am playing catch-up and just read this.

Thanks for reminding me that I too am never alone. Thanks also for your awesome poetry, it speaks to my heart.

Love you

Darrel

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If a man would get his life on track, he must first go back to the place where it was derailed.

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#81960 - 01/10/06 09:10 PM Re: When A Post Is Answered
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA
Bobby,

Quote:
But you are not alone
Oh God, deep down there in your blackness
You don't have to be alone.
So true. And once we realize we are not alone, don't we then seek to find ways to bring each other out of the dark, together?

In true fellowship,
Larry

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Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

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#81961 - 03/13/06 02:12 AM Re: When A Post Is Answered
InjunE Offline
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Registered: 12/04/01
Posts: 89
Loc: Ohio
I remember one of the first posts I ever put on here. When I read it, and realized I was not alone, never alone, I cried like a baby the rest of the night. I couldn't help it. Tears of happiness, because I wasn't alone, and tears of sadness, because others had to feel the way I do.

Even though I wish to god no one else ever had to experience what we had to, I am kind of glad I am not alone. However bad that may sound, I meant nothing bad by it.

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Without my sons, I would not be here.

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