There is a scientific fact: when a bone has been broken, it usually heals stronger at the place it's broken.
Yes, you will not be the same. But you will be stronger for it. Recovery will help you deal with the pain and the memories, and show you how to put them away in a healthy way.
No, they will never go away completely, but you will live. You've done so much. You have survived.
Now you will get better and stronger.
Peace and love,
There are reasons I'm taking medication. They're called "other people." - Me, displaying my anti-social tendancies